2025 was one of my hardest years.

BELIEVE was a word Ellen and I embraced.

Believe in what? That is relevant and ever changing: hope? a great Christmas? love? recovery? We may be disappointed… heart broken even, but we keep believing. Although difficult beyond words, I believe. I believe Ellen is still believing with me. I believe my loved ones are still with me. I believe I will connect with them always. And, of course it is not just the four little birds, but all who are no longer here; all who I can only communicate with through consciousness.

I tell you this because:

What happens in my life, my experiences affect my art. My Mother, my Dad and my brother have all made their presence known in my paintings. I do not know how or when Ellen will, but I know she will. I also know she wants me to get back to work. She wants us to live our best lives. Beyond that…

I need to work.

Through my work I search for this belief that the world will awaken and connect to the universal consciousness. That humans will acknowledge that as mindful beings we are all more alike than not. I believe. I hope.

DIGITAL PAINTINGS

I completed two paintings for my participation in the LACDA Electron Salons this January and February.

“December Portal”
“December Portal” has barely recognizable images of my Dad, Mom, brother and sister.
This is a new addition to my work that I will continue to explore. I use portals for my connections to consciousness. For this piece it seemed a natural addition: with the hope that they are spiritually exploring the portals of the universe; with the loss still so raw and connection so needed.

“Portal Guide”
“Portal Guide” speaks to the gentleness that I am looking for in these portals. All the good qualities of consciousness, of being truly present and accepting of other mindful beings in a universal way. It is on display at LACDA this month.